Nootropics – Bacopa Monnieri

I suppose I should preface this review of Bacopa with reason as to why this is showing up on my blog out of nowhere. Over the last year I’ve taken a strong interest in the emerging study of nootropic substances and have been experimenting carefully with a variety of different supplements and compounds. Initially I was spurred by an interest in self-treating my mild case of social anxiety and depression and that lead to me researching quite extensively for a chemical key to the door that I had locked between the world and my experience of it.

After getting these issues more or less resolved, however, my interest in chemical human enhancement remained in their absence. Nootropics are drugs or supplements that enhance various aspects of human performance with no or very mild side effects. Despite their obvious benefits, the scientists studying them are often unsure as to why they provide these enhancements. This has led to many communities of people across the internet to assemble to begin rote experiment on themselves in lieu of more controlled environments. Unfortunately, research money is not given often to studying nootropics as their is much more financial incentive in creating new anti-depressants or drugs that can actually save lives rather than just merely improve upon them.

My level of adventure isn’t quite at that level (perhaps, wisely.) Even so, I have experimented with a great deal of substances although I restrict myself to those that have had at least a few clinical trials. About a month ago I began experimenting with an ancient Ayurvedic herb, Bacopa Monnieri. Touted as improving memory by the companies that market it, I was initially skeptical (as I always am) but upon doing further research I found that the claims did have some, albeit minor, merit. After a month of taking Bacopa, however, my doubts have been obliterated. I have found that not only has my memory improved slightly, but my depth of thought and focus have increased quite unexpectedly! I have been taking a dosage of around 500mg daily with my morning coffee and after a week I started to notice improvements to my cognitive profile.

In the last month I have probably learned more about computer science than in the last two semesters of college. Granted, my interest has been higher but also I am just finding learning much more fun in general! It’s almost as if Bacopa improves the ability to retain memories and focus through a sort of reward increasing mechanism. Multiple nights I have spent hurdled over my computer devouring knowledge and yet my energy levels don’t wane! I still need to sleep 8 hours a night, but it’s as if the energy levels that regulate the amount of effort that I can exert in an intellectual pursuit have increased by a large factor.

I intend to keep taking this herb and I recommend anyone else who is in college check Bacopa out for themselves. It’s definitely changed what I thought I was mentally capable of and has even removed such an idea from my mind for the time being. I’ll certainly update my blog in a month or two with an update on the nootropic situation. Take care!


Meditation Revelation

We all suffer, only some of us suffer for a purpose and others suffer for lack or denial of one. In life, we should always seek to find the pain that is most pleasing to us. We can never fully escape pain, but there is pain we can endure and pain we cannot. This thought has been brewing in me for the past few weeks and I can’t find any foothold at which to counter it or object to it. Perhaps this is just a personal truth in my life, but I am trying much harder now to allow myself the pleasure of suffering.

It’s Been Awhile

Well, it’s been quite some time since I’ve posted here. The main reason for that is the things I have accomplished have primarily been offline things (I lived with my Grandparents for a few months in New York and worked at a restaurant washing dishes.) Now that I’m back (actually for a couple of months now) I am back in school working towards my CS degree. Lately I’ve been a bit depressed since I haven’t found a job yet since returning and my classes are all online this semester so I haven’t had much social interaction. I’ve worked on writing some new tracks (here and here) but I feel I’m not committed enough to music since learning newer things is hard and it takes a lot of time to write songs without any return (besides the enjoyment of listening to them, which is good.) I pretty much feel “in the moment” all the time, but it’s a miserable place to be. Sometimes I wish I could afford to talk to a therapist, but at the same time, I feel like it wouldn’t be too much help and they would probably just put me on medication regardless of what I said. Other than that, I’ve made a few mods for Minecraft and although they are simple, I can’t imagine playing without them anymore (kind of spoiled by all the resources.)


It’s been quite some time since the last post, so I thought I’d jot down a few things going on lately. I’ve started my 4th semester of college. I also bought a new computer (i7 920 @ 3.3 ghz, 6GB Corsair XMS3, 4890 1GB) that I’ve been using for about 2 months now. I’ve been playing a lot of Modern Warfare 2 despite the horrible amount of problems with the game (sadly I love competitive FPS too much to avoid it.) Looking to maybe pick up a midi keyboard sometime in the next couple of months, because I’ve been stifled by mashing keys on my computer keyboard for far too long, or just thinking up bass lines/melodies in my head.

Other than that, hoping that I can get my classes straightened out for this semester because I was referred to taking a class I didn’t need and had to drop it, and I am trying to get into a different one that I do need and get my grant reinstated. Otherwise, I’ll have to take out a loan and do a summer class to make up for the class that I’m missing at some point.

I’ve been mildly depressed lately due to the fact that my one goal in life was to upgrade my computer, and I had thrown all my effort towards achieving that (which I did) and now I am without any direction, besides completing college, and even that is a far off thing. Hopefully I’ll become re-inspired because I think I’ve matured a bit, and I really want to start cranking out some good songs because I know that I can; I just need the time to do so.

School and Life

So, I haven’t updated for awhile, but I haven’t disappeared! Lately, my school work and life have taken over and I haven’t had much spare time to program for private purposes. However, I am taking programming classes, so my skills are increasing in the background! Hopefully I’ll get some time to work on my various projects, etc, in the near future!

My Quest to Quench Nostalgia… by Nostalgy!

The Splash Screen of Drak

A long time ago, on my very first computer ever (386) I played a game known as Drak. I only ever had the shareware version, but dreamt of having the full version to play all 100 levels. A few years later, I remembered this dream, but found to my dismay, that the company the sold the game was out of business, and there was barely any trace on the internet the game had ever existed! So now, my quest begins many years after that, to find the full version of that game!

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